Doomed and Ticked Off

Ever felt something’s wrong and you can’t figure it out? You’re happy yet still sad, it may be ironic but that’s what I exactly feel right now. There’s tons of reasons to be happy — family, online jobs, new stuffs, lovelife, friends , everything seems surreal but it still feels I’m doomed and ticked off.

Just this afternoon I was at home and felt so bored I went here at my grandma’s. While on my way here, I was thinking of some random things when I felt so confuzzled why I was even going here when it’s really more boring here! I lost my mind and decided something I didn’t even think of. So right now, I’m here and I get pissed off at everything. I wish this is just boredom and not depression or whatnot at all.

Oh well, whatever it is, I just need to vent this out. Haha crazy.

1 Comment July 25, 2010

Venting Machine

Last week. .

I was all dressed up for school when I felt an extreme couch potatoism A.K.A. laziness comprehension disorder so I changed my mind and decided not to go to school. And then mom came and she knew about it. She then nagged nagged nagged, like stucked on replay! I was so pissed I went outside and saw my dog lying on the floor. I was calling her but she wasn’t even bothered to turn behind and look at me. I freaked out, I went near her and saw ants on her tail, I then went panic. She was almost dead. I don’t know what to do, I called Mom but she was mad at me she didn’t even pay attention. The housemaid helped me take all the ants off her, but she kept on saying she’s dead already. I ran to my room and cried a lot. Good thing Mom heard me crying and the maid told her what happened. Mom then rushed outside and called a cab, we brought my dog, Jamjam, to her vet. She was confined for 5 hours.

At 7pm I fetched her and brought her home. Yet, still no progress. She’s still like withered and limp-ish.

Up to now, she’s still like that. She’s not eating at all! I feed her milk using a dropper but she always vomit =(

I don’t know what to do anymore. God, please.

4 Comments July 24, 2010